I'm gonna start posting how the month went for me, just to let you all know that I'm still alive and stuff, and also just to vent a little.

So, what have I been doing outside of Newgrounds? Well, not a lot of good stuff. I've been living with the feelings of guilt, regret, and depression. Don't worry, I'm still trying to fight these feelings. Besides all that, I've been watching a lot of SpongeBob SquarePants on DVD (I'm almost finished with the first season, planning on finishing it tonight), playing a lot of Sonic and Mega Man, and, overall, just trying to reach a better life right now. I've also been working on comics and stuff.

What have I been doing inside of Newgrounds? Just the usual-- posting funny reviews that I hope others will find funny, following new people, and uploading art and stuff. I've even uploaded a new video. As you probably know, I've also been trying to post advice that I'm hoping can be helpful.

So, how do I feel right now? Shameful, and still somewhat depressed. I regret posting anything that's basically a vent post. I mean, it's nice to hear what you all have to say, but I feel dumb for even posting that kind of stuff now. I'm trying to get farther away from having a full-on existential crisis, but at the same time, I feel like I'm getting closer to it. My mom got pissed at the neighbors' kids just for letting their dog crap on our lawn, which happens a lot, but she's never said anything to them about it until now, so there goes any chance of me hanging out with them again, at least until the end of the school year or longer. I've also been unable to sleep at night due to these feelings, and I don't know if what I'm doing is exactly helping myself. My concern for others is also dramatically increasing, for what might be no reason.

Ultimately, I hope February will be better for me than January was. I'm still trying to do things to improve my mood, and I really hope I get in a better place mentally soon. If that ever does happen, I'll make sure to post about it. Until then, see you all in the next post.