It's been ten years since the last time I've legitimately made my parents happy. I feel like such an ungrateful piece of shit. I have never once said "thank you", or shown any other forms of gratitude towards them. I crashed out a little about it earlier today and my mom got a little irritated about it and said I only did it for attention, which proves to me once and for all that she doesn't actually care about me. I shouldn't even be living if that's the case, because, the way I see it, if my family doesn't care about me, then nobody ever will. I'm on antidepressants, but I don't think they're working.

Do you ever develop a crush on your own character?

i've had a melody stuck in my head for three weeks now

i might as well do that scenario where i found a lamp with a genie. these are the three things i'd wish for:

1. a girl to spend time with, cuddle with, and talk to. so, a girlfriend/wife, basically

2. $1,000,000 so i can spend it on plushies, video games, DVDs, graphic novels, and food

3. better art talent, because i really need it, i think

Seeing as Leylah's a pacifist, I don't think she'd survive very long in a Minecraft world, unless she spawned in a village or something. She's somewhat of an explorer, as she does tours in other countries and stuff. Anyway, here's the skin (made with stuff from the Bedrock Marketplace):

A lot has happened in the past two weeks. Turns out I'm innocent on the whole drugs thing. I was also sent to a recovery hospital because of my depression and stuff, so it's not as bad as it used to be, and I'm seeing a therapist weekly now. I'll try to make more content soon

Until it's proven that the drug tests I have to take weekly now are negative, I won't be online for a long time. See you until then, everyone

Your parents don't love you if they make you take a drug test.

Happiness doesn't exist. Peace doesn't exist. Nothing positive exists. Every day, I'm constantly reminded of who I am, and what purpose I serve. I'm nothing but a liar and a thief who just causes problems for everyone around me. Nothing will ever change for me, no matter how much I wait. I'll never be well ever again, and I'm still here just to suffer.

Most of the requests you left me, I finally drew late last night, you can look at the result here: